so, here we go. today i'll be meeting shianni again. was very happy when i got her sms last night.. she's the wonderfulest mentor anyone can have! heh. now that i myself have become a mentor.. i aspire to be like her - that my mentee will be excited to meet me, will talk to me about anything and everything, etc..

19 feb:
it finally happened. i cracked. in the staff lounge during a long(er) break, i was talking to joel and suddenly i was sobbing and crying. nothing's that wrong, actually. it's just all the frustration from school. they don't tell me anything about what's going on and expect me to know and when i don't i not only look stupid in front of my students but get it from the teachers too. and then there's the unfairness of being singled out for certain things i do when i can rattle of a whole list of names of teachers that do them too, and to a higher degree. so why keep picking on me. bah. given my emotional state, when i went into the next class (one of my brattiest), i got so agitated the tears all came back, but i got a grip and forced the tears back in. i will not cry in front of my students. so to "comfort" myself i went to watch cold mountain! haha. it was ooookkk. i guess i had super high hopes for it and was expecting something slightly different. but i still liked it. only thing that really ruined the movie was having these 2 extra "mountains" in front of me (i.e. the heads of a really tall couple). it was mega irritating cos not only did they block out a part of the screen, they kept, erm, joining up and disjoining, if you get what i mean. throughout the whole show!! like, just go get a room already. haha. this is absolutely trivial but i just have to say also that after that i ate gelato - bailey's and tiramisu. heaven. so so so good. then it was off to church for seeker's service rehearsal. it was good! though i really hope eunice doesn't take our "fight" personally, cos i was just trying to press the right buttons to get her pissed (if you're going huh?!!? basically i'm co-directing and i "fought" with the cast to get them in character). really glad merlyn and i sorted out certain issues after the rehearsal.. it's amazing how god put the exact same burdens in our hearts.. i think when both of us work together in the same direction, it's gonna be whooaaa!!! hahaha. merlyn+stef+me=the fearsome threesome. haha..yes, can see all of you rolling your eyes.

18 feb:
didn't get to spend the WHOLE day at borders.. but spent a good 2 hours surrounded by books! lovely. was gonna buy SIX books (!!) but in the end i exercised self control and bought one. heh.. stef joined me and we popped over to starbucks liat towers. it was quite funny cos i was tired and i really wanted to just curl up on the sofa, me, my book, and my cuppa coffee. but the sofa was occupied! so the minute the pple left, i made a mad dash (or rather, i made stef do the mad dashing) for it. hahaha. then... *drumroll* i met my mentee amanda for our first..er...date? hahaha. treated her to nydc. very excited and a little worried at the same time..hope our mentor-mentee relationship will really blossom :) i'm just glad our first date wasn't too awkward or anything..yay.

17 feb:
had my yale interview with an old lawyer-ish guy at katong. i didn't get to talk much and i didn't say a few vital things which i should have but...oh well. it'll be alright. then i treated myself to cadbury's time out, and went running at the beach! refreshing.

16 feb:
met yuying..it's so beautiful how we can just meet up and sit around and talk or walk around or.. i don't know. it's hard to put in words.. yuying's a dear dear friend. :) singing lesson.. then home. really need to work on my breathing.

14 feb, vday:
georgetown interview at 2pm, starbucks raffles city. was very very nice and pleasant. though my interviewer was a little soft spoken and starbucks was rather noisy, we had a great time chatting and stuff.. i'm thinking SFS will be a better choice actually, so now i'm pinning my hopes on that. plus if kor gets his job in virginia, we'll be very close to each other. treated myself to 2 books from mph after the interview, then met amanda and vivien. they came over to my place, and i thought it was so simple, yet so... i dunno. nice. like, 3 of us just hanging out on the patio, in my room.. like, totally comfortable in each others' presence? something like that.. then we went to the airport to send weian off. :| cheesecake cafe dinner. then rushed down to town to meet the church pple after the gig at elements.. bus-ed home after midnight. took cab 4 times that day. heh.

i am so longwinded. ok it's time to get ready for my classes so i'll make a move first.

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