also had a very _____ (insert synonym for happy/nice/.. you get the idea) time talking with yuying over dinner at han's after singing lesson. it's comforting to have a friend who's gone through similar things and it's cool how we're able to draw on our past experiences to help each other, voice our concerns to each other, support each other... there are 2 reasons why i'm glad singing lessons have started again. one, of course, is the lessons themselves - i love my teacher!, and the other, is that at least i'll get to meet yuying once a week! really missed the weekly catching up.. one thing i need to work on: my sense of time!! yuying ALWAYS waits for me, even when i try to be early, she'll be earlier! hahaha. keyword: TRY. i really gotta make sure yuying doesn't wait for me anymore!

met up with xiong, jem, stef, elissa, nathan, florence, liwei and daryl at starbucks after that to celebrate jeremy's birthday. it was the perfect way to end the day - chilling with friends. no stress, just coffee and laughs. i don't know how i'm gonna survive in US.. i'll miss everyone so bad. ...this wave of sadness just passed over me. i really don't want to leave everyone back here. i'm so used to having my friends around me all the time..how will i survive on my own? how will i survive........sigh.

i've had this burning desire to be closer to my cell group members for awhile already. like i don't want to just be a "cell leader". i want to be their friend. i want to be part of their lives, know what's going on, etc. but it gets hard cos the cell's so big. and by the time i really establish a relationship...it'll prob be time for me to leave....... :__( --> (crying face) sigh but see there's no point always wanting to do something, but never getting down to doing it. so i will start. today.

so all in all, today's been a great day. a perfect way to start mid-April, and to kick of the April Project (Revised). (kerk: in response to your comment, i'll tell you abt the Project when we meet). it is my opinion that just having a plan/project isn't enough. you have to constantly review it - see if it's been effective so far, what changes can be made, what should be kept, how to improve, etc.. cos i mean, there's no point having a plan then you lose focus somewhere along the way and you get all demoralised and heck care it. right? yup :) i'm glad i decided to review and re-focus today.

no more procrastinating for me. no more empty talk. these are some pple i really want/need to meet up with!!! so guys, pls let's fix a date and time asap k!
li-ou: next wed, confirmed?
eikfeng: this sunday afternoon, confirmed?
kerk: ?
cedric: ?
joel: ?

ogre, where have you been? i talked to your mom on icq you know! haha. i miss you. kor, are you busy? i miss talking to you on icq. can't wait to go over in may!!

"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." --Jeremiah 29:11

***

"'...You artists think you're the only ones who can relate to these things. Many of us have the same feelings, the same emptiness, the same loneliness. But we don't have the tools to verbalize them. So we carry on, we struggle. Feelings are feelings. I think people's feelings are pretty much the same all over the world.'
We got into an argument, a friendly debate. I disagreed. Some people feel things more deeply than others, and some people feel things the rest of us don't. This is what causes isolation, the sense of being apart, different..."

"All this when I know human relationships are not founded on reason any more than my roses are fertilized with debate. I know seeking asylum behind the wall of intellect and rationality is a selfish retreating into self-protectiveness at the expense of another's well-being. What i did was so intelligent it was as stupid as hell."

--Patricia Cornwell: Postmortem

i'm thinking of a new look to celebrate a rejuvenated me. haha :)

<|>