ARGH!!!!|20.07.04|11:37 am
i'm feeling bitter that EVERYONE'S had a chance to go on holidays with friends and stuff and lousy me has been stuck here the whoooooole freaking 9 months. and i'm also feeling bitter that working totally screws up EVERYTHING! i can't even do something simple like mail my uni stuff cos the post office closes before i end work! i can't settle driving stuff cos of work. i can't meet up with friends, i can't watch movies!!!! argh DAMN! while all my friends are busy enjoying life, and enjoying the last few weeks before uni starts, i'm stuck in this stupid place (everyone here is dying i tell you, bit by bit, day by day), ALL THE WAY UNTIL 1 WEEK BEFORE I LEAVE. and by that time everyone would have started school already and won't have time to go out with me!!!!! i feel like throwing a tantrum, whining, stamping my feet on the ground, crying, whatever. but i know it's not gonna help. but it's precisely this helplessness, this i-can't-do-anything-abt-my-situation, that is SO SO SO FRUSTRATING. DAMMIT a slot just freed up for driving on thurs morn but I CAN'T BOOK IT cos of work!!! sigh i know whining and whinging won't help and i should just help myself by having a more "positive attitude" *fake smile* towards the situation and "make the most" *fake smile* of what i have. sigh. SIGH SIGH SIGH!!!
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on my mind
i'll sing Your praises forever/deeper in love with You/here in Your courts where i'm close to Your throne/i've found where i belong |
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in my heart
For what does it profit a man if he gains the whole world and loses or forfeits himself? --Luke 9:25 |
with my love
barnabas chamber chengyee dalglish debbie edward eikfeng esther jonathan karen li-ou natalie stefanie wenen zachary zhu design diaryland past
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of my life
rae's to-do list!i don't feel like doing anything. bleh.
rae's driving schedule |
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to my past
new home. - 01.09.04whoa. - 26.08.04 what came over me. - 18.08.04 too soon. - 12.08.04 :D - 10.08.04 |