let me just take a short break to thank God. for everything, everything. thank You for blessing my family. thank You for loving me while i was still a sinner. thank You that even when i do wrong, you'll still accept me and forgive me. thank You that You're always with me - i have nothing to fear. thank You for all the wonderful friends that i have. like i was telling stef just now, there's just a million things to thank God for when you sit down and think abt it. and we should thank Him all the time. even when things aren't looking good, still we thank Him. cos He's true to His word.

so going in reverse chronological order, today was a nice day. haha. since i started work, my sleeping pattern has been totally screwed up. i've been waking up at 12+ or 1pm everyday. and though i get albert to wake me up at 9am, and i try hard i really do, i always end up plopping back into bed. badbadbad. so anyway, gave eunice tuition in international trade. it went well.. the girl was really tired though. i hope she'll keep in mind what i told her: tuition can only help you that much. if you're not gonna put in the effort on your part to do better, tuition will be totally useless. managed to catch CSI and half of american idol before i went to meet stef at the beach. so i still smell of dead fish from the sea. how disgusting. sigh, stef, jem, xiong and basically everyone keep reminding me over and over that i'm gonna be leaving soon. but.. oh i dunno. i keep not wanting to think and talk abt it cos then it'll seem less real.. i'm still here you know!! sigh. as much as i'm excited abt going over, i really really don't want to leave all of you.. hope you guys realise that.

tuesday was delightful. cos i spent the afternoon with debbie. debbie is the girl who helped me collect all my worksheets in p6 when i was away in japan. debbie is the girl whose handwriting i spent years trying to copy (haha). she's the girl who i collected my PSLE results together with and the faithful shopping partner. we've been with each other for 9 years of wonderfully good times and terribly bad times. and it just warms my heart how, despite RJ's cruel timetabling taking away our common breaks causing us to barely exchange a few sentences through the whole J2, we're still just as chummy as ever. it's interesting how your friends "grow" on you. like how it's all debbie's fault that i'm unwittingly attracted to all glittery/sparkly things now. so back to tuesday, we had lunch at this nice little new restaurant-ish place along liangseah street. and spent the rest of our time walking ard bugis and later to esplanade. talking with her made me realise how old we are, and how much we've grown through the years.. had a marvellous time deb :) and i'm looking forward to our picnic next wk!!

after deb left to interview someone for her article, i spent my time at the esplanade library, browsing through random scripts for ideas.. it was good. the place, the being alone, all of it. nathan picked me up later from eunos on his motorbike!! hahaha. my first time riding a bike. it was cool, except for all the exhaust fumes. i kept worrying that i was too heavy though. hahaha. thanks nathan :) megapraise practice after that was lotsa fun. i always look forward to worshipping. i just hope that when i go boston i'll find a church where i can continue to serve.

monday!! mondays are always HAPPY DAYS cos i get to meet ying. hehe. went to settle my passport stuff, then met ying for singing lessons. i seem to be getting worse and worse.. dunno why. sigh. then we had YUMMY and super filling dinner!! hahaha. it was damn funny cos we were planning what we'd eat NEXT WEEK. most pple think abt their next meal, or the next day's food or sth.. and there we were planning what we'd eat the next week and how best to maximise our utility.. hahahaha. hilarious.

i keep having this nagging feeling that i've forgotten something.. hope i haven't. as in, not that i've forgotten to say something but that there's something important i've forgotten about. anyway. it's 2.29am and i really need to take my bath cos i can't stand the dead fish from the sea smell anymore. and i need to wake up at 6.15am tmr to go for PDYM (Purpose-Driven Youth Ministry). then i have to ZOOM straight to work after that. get back at 1+am and repeat the whole routine again (PDYM, work). gosh.

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