can't wait till i get my pay, and for one reason only. can't wait to start treating my friends!! it'll be so much fun.. yuying and kerk, amanda and vivien (suppsoed to be a surprise but vivien spoilt it today! haha), shianni and stef, and joy! that's the list so far.. but i think i have to start a "starve, rae, starve!" campaign. my face and butt have grown visibly fatter, as confirmed by dear joel. and no, this is not another one of those girl-whines-about-being-fat type of statements. how many times have i ever mentioned anything abt being fat here? zero. so when i do say it, i mean it. visibly, ok, visibly. that's.. scary. i gave myself the excuse of cny and stuff, but now it's all over and i'm still binging. this can't be happening.

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