today was the happiest i've ever been in forever. and this is going to be a very long entry.

let's start with how i happened to mention seeker service rehearsals to zhu while we were smsing abt a siglapers get together. and much to my surprise, she was really excited abt seeker service! i immediately felt god rebuking me. why was i so apologetic when i told her it was a church thing? why was i expecting her to not want to come before even giving her a chance to reply? there and then, i felt compelled to say a prayer of thanks for her enthusiasm, and also felt a strong prompting to pray for protection for zhu. i knew the devil would try to put obstacles in her way to make her change her mind. but i knew there was something god wanted zhu to hear during seeker service. she had to be there. so i prayed for protection, and i told myself to have faith. have faith that she would come, as she had said.

2.30am: came home from the beach. joel turned my bad feelings into smiles and laughter. the crash of sea waves is by far the most therapeutic sound i know..

5am: zhu smses me. she just got back from work and she might not be able to wake up in time for seeker service. i was sleeping and didn't read the sms.

7.50am: wake up for church. read zhu's sms. immediate response: disappointment. immediate thoughts: see, i knew this would happen in the end. but then, a still small voice rebuked me: where's your faith? zhu can/will still come! so i prayed. i told god that i had faith he'd bring zhu for seeker service, cos he wanted her there.
ma came to wish me happy birthday. first time in such a long time that she smiled at me. and that she really gave me a hug.

8.40am: reached church. prep for seeker service started. felt useful cos eunice needed me to do her hair :)

9.50am: went up to choir room for prayer. AMAZING. lynette, shianni, pris and candy are such anointed pple. god's presence was right there. the music flowing from pris's fingers was so..perfect. and lynette's and shianni's words hit the nail square on the head for EVERYONE. with renewed strength, we all hurried abt to get ready after prayer was over.

11.00am: i feel paiseh bugging zhu about coming for seeker service (why, rae, why!!! i shouldn't be ashamed!) so instead i ask pakwing if he's coming down. got a reply saying he'll be late but timo will be coming. dunno why, i decide to tell god: i know that zhu will be here. she will be able to wake up. she will come.

11.25am: seeker service. WOW. georgie was SO GOOD. eunice, elissa, rujin, all SO GOOD. sound was kinda screwed at first, and merlyn and i uttered prayers under our breath. what do you know, it got better less than 30 seconds later. now here comes the amazing part.

after seeker service, i'm just sitting there enjoying dale and yvette's singing..and i here "RAEEEEEE!!!!" from the side. turn my head, and i see....yup you got it. ZHU!!!!! i was so amazed i didn't know what to say. it's like, god is so cool. so so cool. and i thought, this is what a little faith like a mustardseed can do. imagine what greater things we can do if only we had more faith!!! so zhu, pakwing, timo, and his friend all had come. WOOHOO!!! i was overjoyed.

ok it's 3.44am and i'm DEAD TIRED. so i will continue tmr. coming up next: cell grp..CS..joy... sneak preview: "the only thing missing from today was ogre. ogre where are you? i miss you. and you missed my birthday..." stay tuned. ;)

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